Category: My work/projects

You will never guess what brought back my joy to write

You will never guess what brought back my joy to write

Have you ever struggled in your life? Have you ever felt lost? Have you ever felt like everything was just falling apart, and you felt like losing ground? I have been there. I did not see any future for myself. My life changed, and even though I was prepared, I was not really. I wanted to be. I saw that nobody else had a problem with the same situation at all. This made me feel even more miserable.

I had no joy at work or anywhere. All my ambition and enthusiam were gone. It seemed that a part of me just died. I had no perspective. I had no clue how my future would be like. Did I even have one? I talked to my Grandma who only told me I was too young to feel this way. I never talked about it again. Instead, I acted, as I was okay. I did not want to bother anyone with something that was only a stupid feeling.

I felt ashamed of myself.
I felt ashamed of myself.

Then, one day my coworker started talking about a character on a TV show. She did not stop talking about him and his quirks. My coworker and I were very different. The only other show we both watched was Desperate Housewives. However, her passion while telling me about this character and the show made me curious and, shortly after, I watched one episode. I honestly did not like it at first. At least I thought that. A few days later, she waited for me in front of the office building and gave me her first season DVD. She said, “Watch it and like it.” And I did, and I did.

For some reason I did not understand back then, I instantly felt like I finally had something that I wanted, without me knowing that I wanted it. It was like something in me came back. I was curious and excited again. I was looking forward to something again. I have not felt like that in a long time. The show also brought something else back, which I had almost forgot how it felt like: laughing.

I was happy again.

A few weeks later, I realized why I thought I did not like the first episode I saw. I could relate so much to the female character, who felt as a complete failure in that particular episode. Then she became addicted to something, a computer game, that she never thought could like. It was because of her neighbor who she also never thought could like some day. He seemed to be the complete opposite of her. I felt like that girl, though my neighbor, who seemed to be different in so many ways from me, was actually my former coworker. The show had the same impact on me as the game on that female character. Well, maybe not exactly the same.

Over the years, I figured out that at some point, certain people came like out of nowhere and were expanding in my life. Just like the female character and her neighbors who became more and more important to each other. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe years, it felt these persons had always been part of my life, even though I knew they were not. This show made me realize why I felt like I died in some way. I stopped writing. I stopped telling stories, and by that, I stopped being entirely me. The characters on the show are grownups but still love to play and be goofy. As a kid, I loved listening to my friends, mixing everything I knew they liked and making a story out of that. There was no greater challenge before I went to sleep, and no greater joy than looking into their eyes while they were listening to my creation.

I love telling stories.

When I started working at my first job, I felt exhausted every day. It was so different than school. Everyone around me said I should not waste my time on any creativity, as this will never get me any decent income. Well, I started writing again after I had some kind of epiphany because of that show. It is part of my current job, even though Marketing is a different way of creative writing or storytelling. That is what I do at home, here on my WordPress page, and maybe one day, I can live my dream to the fullest. I want to create characters people can identify, stories that are more than tales. I wrote my first book this year, inspired by the actor who played the neighbor, and my first musical. I started writing book number two, have already ideas for number three and a play.

Six years ago, I published something I wrote back then. Now I want to re-share it as part one of my Christmas present to you. In this story, I let the actors of that show think of the previous season, which was number five back then. This was the first one I saw when it was new to everyone, so it will always be special to me. I wanted to put in this little story, what I have learned from that season. Over the years I have learned some more, but, spoiler alert, that will be part two of the present, coming next week.

Click here to open the PDF or here to get to read my story on Movellas, which is a page for aspiring writers. For some reason, I have not used it in the last six years…

Please note: As some of you know I am not an English native speaker, and I wrote this six years ago. I re-read it recently, and there are some grammar mistakes and literal translations like laser sword, which is the German “Lichtschwert” meaning lightsaber. I did not want to change anything, and just re-share how I published it on my former blog. Hope you enjoy reading it anyway. I would love to read your feedback – and if you have any questions, let us talk about it.


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Celebrating 12 years Big Bang Theory – will there be a gaming app soon?

Celebrating 12 years Big Bang Theory – will there be a gaming app soon?

This week, the final season premiere of the Big Bang Theory aired on CBS, followed by a second new episode on Thursday. This was the right occasion for me to finally publish my idea on how to celebrate the successful comedy series. It combines the wish from fans who want more people to attend a live taping, have an extended episode, some gaming fun, some Comic Con like parts, and much more.

Over the years, I have not only written several posts about the hit comedy, but also shared why this particular show changed my life. It helped me out of the darkest time, when I thought my life had no purpose. It brought me something back of which I had almost forgotten how it felt: laughing. I could see me again. I felt so lost after finishing school, and kind of overwhelmed by the working world for which I did not feel prepared. However, the show inspired me to many things, telling stories which I loved but stopped when I started working, being creative again which I stopped at the same time and being ok being me, which I stopped as well. I know I am different, but thanks to the show, I found others who feel similar. Big Bang connects us, so we all feel less alone.

Last Monday I shared an idea, which I had for years. Now it seemed appropriate to share it. I struggled a lot at first. Who cares about what I think? There are people who are in charge for everything the show related and they will find the right way to finish it. I don’t question this. The writers are as outstanding as the cast. Certainly, I have my thoughts of how it will end and also hope for a reference to the pilot, just to round things up, but it is the writers’ job and not mine to finish telling the stories of these characters.

ShamyonMarsTitleNow back to my idea: I heard many people wishing to attend a live taping. Many could not make it because they could either not travel to LA or they were not fast enough getting tickets. Others wished there was an extended episode, like a movie. So I was thinking about all of these wishes, and well, my brain always works best when I can mix things up, and so I came up with this.

Simply move the show to a bigger stage, like at a theater. In my video, I even thought about a stadium, but it could also be a place like the Dolby Theater. Making a whole event with a Big Bang shop that sells Big Bang comic books – maybe even some fan art, as I see so many drawings, bracelets, dolls, etc. made by fans, which is incredible. The show inspires fans to be creative in so many ways. And there should be a place where fans can play “Shamy on Mars”.

When Jim Parsons firstly talked about his idea for “Young Sheldon” and that this seemed to be obvious and wondered why no one already came up with this, I was thinking the same about this gaming app. I mean, fans love Sheldon and Amy, and probably they love playing games on their phones. So, there could a way they can create their own future of their favorite TV couple.

I would really love seeing the show move to a bigger stage, at least for the big final. Maybe they even do a halftime show – but call it intermission performance or something. I think that many fans would love even more to be at the final live taping. A theater offers more seats than Warner Bros studio 25. However, what’s with those who cannot travel? A live stream could be placed on YouTube, or it streams at least across the US and Canada, as I have no knowledge about the rights issues – different countries, different regulations, that is all I know.

Doing it that way would offer more people the chance to attend a taping. They can enjoy the show live as a play, either at the theater or on a device of their choice. No one will know anything beforehand. It will be completely new for everyone when the fans watch it.

A play would be an extended episode. It is on a stage, just like Big Bang, and I think this would fit better to the show than a movie. I even have ideas for that intermission, like Wil Wheaton as Prof Proton meets… Well, I am not going to reveal everything yet. Just again, getting geeky and mixing several things up, creating something never before seen. The show is outstanding, and that is why it should end, not only in theory, with a Big Bang.

Please let me know in the comments what you think of my ideas. Also feel free to share. Thank you.

Click here for the full video to watch my idea for the live event.


Who will win at Primetime Emmy Awards 2014?

It might be like Neil Armstrong’s first step on the moon. For most people it will remain an unfulfilled dream. But those who climbed the Olympus of TV world it’s the night of their lives.

Primetime Emmys

Sport enthusiasts look forward to the Olympics, fans of american TV count down the days to the Primetime Emmy Awards. Who will take home a trophy? Which TV show will win? Lots of questions, a huge excitement and much fun for lots of people, me included. Last year I tweeted live during the ceremony and will definitely do this again Monday, August 25. But I also wanna talk about the show, only a few days before.

If you also love good US TV, and can’t wait for the Emmys, join my Google+ Pre-Emmy Talk Hangout. It will take place Friday, August 22 at 9 pm CEST (would be 12 pm if you’re living in LA area and 3 pm if you’re in New York area).

It doesn’t matter which country you are from, you only should be able to talk about the nominees in English and have a Google+ account. We will discuss the most important categories and at the end we make our guesses of the winners.

If you wanna participate, just use the contact form below. You can also use it, if you have some questions about it. Feel free to ask anything you want. There will also be a Post-Emmy Hangout, which will take place Friday after the Emmys. You can also already join that hangout or even both 😉!

I am looking forward to hangout with you soon!!